Today's miracle came to me during my run. It's my first run in about 2 weeks. Last weekend I injured my back and ended up in the emergency room. And I had not run the previous week. So I was out of commission until today.
But this morning for some reason was tough. I was in church and I don't know why but I started to get pretty emotional about my relationship. It's hard right now. We've been long distance since January and have only seen each other once in that time. I've been trying to decide what would be the best move for both of us. We've been together for over 3 years and at our age, it's sort of that time when we need to decide to fish or cut bait--I know that sounds horrible, but it's sort of true. I guess maybe the fact that they were celebrating wedding anniversaries at church made me a little emotional. I started to think about the fact that I wanted to be one of those couples.
So after church, I did a little shopping. Nother major, bought some mums to make my house look a bit more like fall and some random groceries. And after a bit of relaxing and trying to find a decent movie to watch (because of the lack of Sunday football--I hate preseason)....I decided to text a friend. And a conversation began.
He's familiar with my situation with my boyfriend. And he's tried to offer some advice--without telling me what to do. And I have to admit, I really appreciate it. And then I started to think of other people I have leaned on in the last few months.
It's been a tough summer. One of my co-workers took another position and so we've had 3 people doing the work of four--believe me I am not complaining. I have a job and I am very appreciative. But I have felt like I've been behind on EVERYTHING and I just can't seem to catch up. I've been at my job for two years now and typically this is a time when I seem to find my comfort zone and start to run a bit on autopilot. But taking on some new projects has certainly not given me that feeling.
And my grandmother passed away this summer as well. She was 94 years old and lived a very full life. She went pretty fast and had very little suffering. And most importantly, she was able to see all 8 of her children before she passed. I had the honor to sing at her funeral. As always, this is something I like to do because it's sort of my special way of saying goodbye. But it can be difficult.
And with my boyfriend being gone and our future unsure, well...you can see how it would be a tough summer. And I've thankfully had a lot of good friends that have comforted me and encouraged me through all of it.
That's a miracle...there are certainly people out there who don't have friends. Or who don't have close friends. I am VERY fortunate to not only have friends in all of my walks of life but also to have friends that have been with me for many, many years. I have know the friend that I texted today for 15 years. And that to me is a miracle that I am most definitely thankful for. I wish everyone those types of friendships. Even if they only have one or two. It's those people that will be there when you need them and even when you don't.
One of my favorite sayings goes something like this "A good friend is someone you can call to bail you out of jail...but a great friend is someone sitting next to you in the cell and says 'Damn that was fun!'"
But this morning for some reason was tough. I was in church and I don't know why but I started to get pretty emotional about my relationship. It's hard right now. We've been long distance since January and have only seen each other once in that time. I've been trying to decide what would be the best move for both of us. We've been together for over 3 years and at our age, it's sort of that time when we need to decide to fish or cut bait--I know that sounds horrible, but it's sort of true. I guess maybe the fact that they were celebrating wedding anniversaries at church made me a little emotional. I started to think about the fact that I wanted to be one of those couples.
So after church, I did a little shopping. Nother major, bought some mums to make my house look a bit more like fall and some random groceries. And after a bit of relaxing and trying to find a decent movie to watch (because of the lack of Sunday football--I hate preseason)....I decided to text a friend. And a conversation began.
He's familiar with my situation with my boyfriend. And he's tried to offer some advice--without telling me what to do. And I have to admit, I really appreciate it. And then I started to think of other people I have leaned on in the last few months.
It's been a tough summer. One of my co-workers took another position and so we've had 3 people doing the work of four--believe me I am not complaining. I have a job and I am very appreciative. But I have felt like I've been behind on EVERYTHING and I just can't seem to catch up. I've been at my job for two years now and typically this is a time when I seem to find my comfort zone and start to run a bit on autopilot. But taking on some new projects has certainly not given me that feeling.
And my grandmother passed away this summer as well. She was 94 years old and lived a very full life. She went pretty fast and had very little suffering. And most importantly, she was able to see all 8 of her children before she passed. I had the honor to sing at her funeral. As always, this is something I like to do because it's sort of my special way of saying goodbye. But it can be difficult.
And with my boyfriend being gone and our future unsure, well...you can see how it would be a tough summer. And I've thankfully had a lot of good friends that have comforted me and encouraged me through all of it.
That's a miracle...there are certainly people out there who don't have friends. Or who don't have close friends. I am VERY fortunate to not only have friends in all of my walks of life but also to have friends that have been with me for many, many years. I have know the friend that I texted today for 15 years. And that to me is a miracle that I am most definitely thankful for. I wish everyone those types of friendships. Even if they only have one or two. It's those people that will be there when you need them and even when you don't.
One of my favorite sayings goes something like this "A good friend is someone you can call to bail you out of jail...but a great friend is someone sitting next to you in the cell and says 'Damn that was fun!'"
My friend Heather and I in 7th grade at the Celebration in the Oaks
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